Sacred warrior

Imperfect.

2011-11-12T12:44:00.002+08:00

I realize that I tend to avoid doing certain things cause I feel that I'm not good enough. Good anyway, it makes me improve myself til I'm good enough.

Update.

2011-11-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

IVP 3rd consecutive champion last week. Somehow the team managed to pull through...good thing I guess. For jitipudao, glad they all did well. The whole time of us missing from the competition ground was for me to brief and us to discuss about the things to take note, the mental preparations. Glad we won it. But something's been bugging me since. Without liuming pressing and elevating the scores, could we've won? So there brings me this new resolution. Even when 90% of the pros in the current team graduate, we must still continue the legacy. And this time round, not make our judge a bad person in front of others and win it legit-ly. When year 3 comes around, busy with intern/proj. Would I have the time to train? The gap between our skills and the current yr3 ones are so huge...Hopefully with KT's new trg plan, as long as I follow it...I will be able to improve well. Also...I must keep track of this goal and never let it get out of sight. Must not continue with the slacking attitude during the past few months of training. Must go on no matter how tired I am, as long as my leg doesn't cramp... Bear the pain a little and slacken if it hurts too much. Starting gym soon. Must not stop proceeding. Else it'll be tough to start again. Might loose track of the reason for this trainings, just hope I can get back asap. And remind myself that all these are not without a purpose/reason.

I can do it.

2011-07-14T12:55:00.003+08:00

Time, where are you?

2011-07-08T22:38:00.002+08:00

Tired, I must manage my time better. No whining. No disheartening. No going with the crowd. Focus, focus and focus. But. I really need a weekend off to clear off my fucking tutorials. It's too big a pile to be done within few hours. Hate it, but looks like I've to burn into my sleep. Something that I did during the nats period. Something I've got to go through again. Whatever it is, I'll keep moving on. Next week, I shall improve.

Wrath gives me strength.

2011-07-02T18:53:00.003+08:00

Listed as one of the seven deadly sins. It is nothing of that to me. Life is unfair, starting from birth til you die, there's always at least once where you feel that things are just unfair in someway like e.g. someone taking tremendous effort to be healthy by running like 10km daily, isolating from fried/sweet/salty stuffs, never smoked, never drank alcohol having to end his life due to lung cancer from second hand smoking. Ironic isn't it? Though that is just a rather extreme example... Whenever you face unfairness, you'll be resentful in some way. As a human being, I have emotions and I would feel that too. I bear resentment against things, but not always. However, sometimes it is just that serious that you don't mind having to bear a grudge on it. The moment you hit rock bottom, hatred and wrath would be there and they can spring you back up if you manage to utilize it subconsciously. The will created by wrath is strong and firm so long as you believe in it. It may be blind and could cause harm, but it can also make one ridiculously strong as they no longer hesitate about anything. The madness from it is nothing of complexity, just simple brutality. That is what I define Berserk.

I have yet to hit rock bottom, but somewhere close...If I'm going to live with this pain, so be it. I'll continue with my life the way I want it to be. So what if I die halfway.

People say everything you do has a reason. Be it something you subconsciously want to achieve, something you need, something you want or just for the fun out of it. I don't agree with that statement though...not everything that you do have a reason behind it. That itself is hard to explain. I've done some things without a reason, no motive hidden subconsciously, no underlying "no choice", no nothing. People who think simply, will not need a reason behind everything they do. They just do it. Often then not, I do anything I can. I don't just do things because of it's benefit. I don't do things just because I get recognized. I don't do things so that people will appreciate. I do things because it's a responsibility. I do things because I feel bad if I don't do it. I do things because I find that there's a need to it. I wonder why others are giving any excuses... I'm appalled by some of the excuses too. Or maybe it is because I'm too accustomed to being a lonewolf, doing things I need to. Because there's just no other option.

Holding on.

2011-06-30T23:20:00.001+08:00

I don't know why but that roll made me injured my back. Nt really my back, just the right side of the ribcage. I didn't feel anything at first due to the tireness acting as a counterpain. When we were about to ya tui, the pain started coming. It was intially a back pain, then slowly pain when breathing. Now I can't breathe well... taking small and rapid breaths so that that something inside me doesn't hurt. When I try to take deep breath it hurts terribly. not just one specific spot but one entire stretch along my right ribcage near the center of my body to my right shoulder. When I use alittle force or jump alittle. That part of me would hurt. Hope it's just a simple injury, cause I suspect it could be that my ribcage is alittle out of place, pushing and putting pressure on my lungs cuz I can feel that the right side of my ribcage is protruding out a tiny bit. Fortunately it wasn't that my lungs were punctured, I thought it was initially when I was so effing short of breath out of a sudden, no matter how I tried to stretch my back it wouldn't ease. Then I felt weak and can feel that oxygen was lacking in the blood as my head felt numbness. After a good long rest, things began to improve. But til now, it still hurts alittle when I breathe and I can't take big breaths and breathe freely. Hope that's just for now.

Results.

2011-06-28T00:43:00.004+08:00

Ranked according to which result I got first. Not how much I achieved.

Engineering Maths 3B - 90/100
Thermodynamics - 72/100
Applied Mechanics - 15/30 (Just passed)
Industrial Automation - 91.5/100

Apparently my results are descending according to the lateness of getting it. Edit: Wahaha damn sastified with my ia result.

Always feeling that my exam results are results of pure luck. Shall put that aside. Though the results are alittle disappointing, there's no point emo-ing alr. Think of it. Was so busy because of nationals, yet I still could pass everything. When final exam comes, I just have to be so damn ready.

不甘心

2011-06-16T16:08:00.004+08:00

Still as nua as ever. Got a long way to go. Must get stronger. Need to improve my speed and explosiveness. As well as cultivating the wrath needed to fuse into the taolu for a better performance.

This is sparta!... ok that's random.
Whenever I don on the red shirt, I should be reminded of what I'm here for. Shouldn't forget those very words just because they're written at the back.

Vendetta.

2011-05-30T22:21:00.001+08:00

A hidden agenda. I'll remain silent, out of my opponents senses. Catching them unprepared. No room for nua-ness.
I'm beginning it, til then... watch me. Safeguarding a legacy and creating another in the process.

It's over :D

2011-05-29T00:39:00.003+08:00

Competed in nationals today. 1st time doing individual event. Got a score of 8.20, but, I know my standard isn't that good. I wanted to go all out. Rehearsed in the bathroom, in my dreams. The wrath I needed was missing. A small part of it was present though. I was really afraid that I'll forget my taolu somehow. In my mind I was thinking about all the things to look out for. My mind was preoccupied with stuffs and I forgot to look towards the direction my pudao, or be confident. Hence, it was rather cui. But at least I achieved some things. Experience and didn't do too badly to not do justice to ngee ann's name, just as what I initially wanted.

btw, I ate too much sugary food. I think I'm diabetic now. 3 and a half of kit kat energy bars, kfc zinger + carbonated water + mash potato, old chang kee, chicken rice.

IVP, Got to get 3 yrs consecutive. By then I'll be ready. I want to help the team draw the distance of our win. A clean sweep win.

We fight together!

2011-05-25T23:21:00.001+08:00

Tranquil as a forest
But on fire within
Once you find your center
you are sure to win...

(Be a man)
We must be swift as
the coursing river
(Be a man)
With all the force
of a great typhoon
(Be a man)
With all the strength
of a raging fire
Mysterious as the
dark side of the moon

----

Went to watch the competitions today. Cat did a great job, but the judges lowered her score drastically for some reasons. Yuling showed me some video of the china competitions and I finally knew that there's someone elses out there way greater than the 'mountains' here in singapore. Such an eye opener. If I were to choose between Risky and stable performance, I'll choose risk. It gives you a chance to achieve great heights but will make you fall low if you fail to. Nothing ventured nothing gained. I should stop limiting myself by following the 'mountains' here...there's no boundary. No matter how many times I fall and fail, it's inevitable if I want to achieve something great.

I'll get stronger!

2011-05-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

About a week to compts. Xuan zi ah xuan zi, when will I be able to get you right? It's do or die.

Bai gor.

2011-05-07T00:02:00.003+08:00

Yep, today is friday. A week just passed like that. 2 more weeks til Nationals. I've been trying hard to catch up with school work. I can understand alittle bit of different modules already, except maths --. O well got to work hard and not screw quiz 1 coming nxt monday. Theres work tmr...but it'll be over soon enough. Trained today...Stil very nua while doing taolu. I like the pudao that I'm using as it can make lots of noise, but it's way too floppy to control to make my movements sharp enough. 2 week, got to practice til I get my xuan zi right...but it doubt I can do it, so at least a 75% right will be good enough. Other than that, I've got to practice 3/4 of the remaining taolu more and get my physical aspect ready to take on the competition.

Sometimes, I prefer doing things the simple way. Just 向前闯. Forcing my way straight ahead. That's how I survived so long.

Fustrated.

2011-05-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

I seriously feel like pulling out of compt...Why the fuck do I've to train so hard for this. I'm like sacrificing time to catch up with school work for something I've absolutely no chance of winning. The team seem to be drifting apart... a cca that I don't enjoy much and feel totally stressed about... Why? WHY THE FUCK AM I DOING THIS? I've been telling myself that I can make it...but what possibility to it? Every training makes me more depressed, more worried...If I'm not careful, I could just flunk this sem's Common tests...Clinging on false hopes again and again...When I realise how much a fool I've been for all these while, makes me feel like keeping it all back to myself. For how long since I've supressed this shitload of setbacks and feeling of devastation... going on thinking everything is fine. I feel like Quiting.

facebook > twitter > blog

2011-04-30T21:03:00.005+08:00

That thing above is the index of true thoughts. This blog is a good place for me to express myself because I don't know who the readers are and it's like talking to a wall~ So I'll most probably post most of my true feelings deep inside. I assume no one will judge.

Twitter being second in the list because I've got a few followers now...though its a pathetic 13 in total, but I'll have to filter my thoughts before posting them up.

Facebook being the last in the list since I've got a wider audience that may read my updates. True feelings/thoughts have to be filtered thoroughly before posting or have to be thick skinned to do so.

Sad right? post things also need to consider so much.

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Anyway, my determination to train was destroyed since orientation week began lol. Didn't have much time to train and as not used to training in school. Now that 1 week has passed since end of orientation week, I've trained after school. But as I train, I developed more fear of the things I'm doing, I became more whiny, became sick and tired with pudao, with wushu and last but not least, became more nua than nua whenever I have the chance to. I've got to overcome this. Where's the passion when I need it the most? Oh you and I. Kick up the leaves and the magic is lost... Chey~ started singing for no reason. ONE resolution for next week. Just next week. Don't whine and keep going

DON'T GET BOUNDED BY CONVENTIONS~ SET OFF~ FLY HIGH!

Actually No.

2011-04-23T19:38:00.003+08:00

Officially starting school next week. I want a GPA 4.0. I dare to dream big!
The past few weeks have been meaningful. I learnt alot of things...despite all that rant, jealousy and unpleasant stuffs. I learnt to speak up when needed, I learnt that being a leader isn't easy, I learnt that being sociable is very important and most importantly, I grew stronger/wiser mentally.

This was a great opportunity for me to grow...and I can't thank them enough. I made new friends, experienced different roles with different responsibility, and learnt some life lessons.

~~~

Today I made a new friend with a colleague. After talking with him, I realized that the people working around me have their own stories too. Because I kept quiet, I didn't get to know of those stories. I cold-treated them like an average stranger, but thinking back...I could've done better. Forgive my shallow past,for I wish to become better in the near future.

Being quiet is a sin to me now...I shouldn't be afraid to speak up.

I think I'll just return back to my old self.

2011-04-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

Sick and tired of trying. Don't want to try to talk more anymore. I still find bottling up feelings still the best choice, no one gets affected, no one's unhappy. Truths are often left unsaid, to accommodate and maintain relationship with people. Communication is too tough a thing for me...I guess...I think I'll give up trying.

My 'tough' trainings are not their 'tough' training, no reason to complain.

Long way ahead.

2011-04-13T00:22:00.003+08:00

May's national compt is approaching. Did "routine pagoda" today. Shag. It's not really that type that make your body become jelly-like. But the requirement of stamina is great. You've to keep doing your routine after routines without much time to catch your breath. Resulting in shortage of oxygen supply to your body, making you more and more exhausted as you climb up the levels of the "pagoda". But after it is all over, after a few minutes of heavy breathing, you'll be fine back again. Though this type of training is tiring and physically demanding, at least we'll all accomplish something at the end of the day. Isn't it good?

Though I'm not very serious about this nationals compt from the start, at least...I don't want to go up and make a big fool out of myself for not putting in any effort. When school reopens, I won't have the weekends to procrastinate training nor work. I've to work twice as hard...but...I'll have money to spend :) Ain't it great?

So I'll train up. Don't worry about that. I should be able to make it before the competition commences.

丑角

2011-04-11T11:39:00.001+08:00

曹格Gary Cao Ge- Chou Jiao丑角 pinyin lyrics

陪你放肆嬉闹
pei ni fang si xi nao
开场前就应该明了
kai chang qian jiu ying gai ming liao
谁该买票谁扮丑角
shei gai mai piao shei ban chou jiao
早注定好
zao zhu ding hao

只要你不无聊
zhi yao ni bu wu liao
浓妆我就不会卸掉
nong zhuang wo jiu bu hui xie diao
努力讨好逗你欢笑
nu li tao hao dou ni huan xiao
多陪你一秒
duo pei ni yi miao

我只是寂寞的解药
wo zhi shi ji mo de jie yao
我也知道
wo ye zhi dao
曲终人该散了
qu zhong ren gai san le

只要你开心就好
zhi yao ni kai xin jiu hao
若只是你生命的配角
ruo zhi shi ni sheng ming de pei jiao
娱乐过你也骄傲
yu le guo ni ye jiao ao
就算听你说他的好
jiu suan ting ni shuo ta de hao
心里对你再多爱慕
xin li dui ni zai duo ai mu
仍是站在远处
reng shi zhan zai yuan chu
只给你祝福
zhi gei ni zhu fu

你有权力寻找
ni you quan li xun zhao
你最适合谁的拥抱
ni zui shi he shei de yong bao
既然爱过还你自由
ji ran ai guo huan ni zi you
我不哭不闹
wo bu ku bu nao

我只是
wo zhi shi
寂寞的解药
ji mo de jie yao
我也知道
wo ye zhi dao
曲终人该散了
qu zhong ren gai san le

只要你开心就好
zhi yao ni kai xin jiu hao
若只是你生命的配角
ruo zhi shi ni sheng ming de pei jiao
娱乐过你也骄傲
yu le guo ni ye jiao ao
就算听你说他的好
jiu suan ting ni shuo ta de hao
心里对你再多爱慕
xin li dui ni zai duo ai mu
仍是站在远处
reng shi zhan zai yuan chu

灯灭掉人散了
deng mie diao ren san le
我开始找找不到
wo kai shi zhao zhao bu dao
你尖叫你的笑跌了一跤
ni jian jiao ni de xiao die le yi jiao
这双脚不知道怎么逃
zhe shuang jiao bu zhi dao zen me tao
伤痛煎敖
shang tong jian ao
就留我独自枯坐墙角
jiu liu wo du zi ku zuo qiang jiao

只要你开心就好
zhi yao ni kai xin jiu hao
我只是你生命的配角
wo zhi shi ni sheng ming de pei jiao
娱乐过你也骄傲
yu le guo ni ye jiao ao
就算听你说他的好
jiu suan ting ni shuo ta de hao
心里对你再多爱慕
xin li dui ni zai duo ai mu
仍是站在远处
reng shi zhan zai yuan chu
只给你祝福
zhi gei ni zhu fu

Sad? But so what?

2011-04-04T00:22:00.004+08:00

"Post removed. Whoever read it, good for you."

Rashes

2011-04-02T23:25:00.002+08:00

I've a feeling that the rashes is caused by overdose of milk. About 2 litres in a short period of time. I'm making a freaking huge effort in hygiene aspects of my daily life already. The problem don't seem so surface anymore. More like toxification of blood or something by Vitamins/Calcium/Protein. Need to lose these fast. Spam exercise!

ಠ..ಠ

2011-03-27T21:51:00.006+08:00

Been awhile since I last posted. In this short 6 days, lots of things happened. Outings, Trainings, Results. Shall talk about Results. Did better than I expected, at least I know my effort of camping in the library to study for a long period of time worked. But my classmate who taught me how to do those qns were a big help too. Can't thank them enough. I realized one thing while training this week. I've been doing this rather slowly. Not with force or speed and accuracy. Just go all out, that's what I'm missing out.

I don't know if I should quit having lessons with dewu. At my local CC, it's a beginner's class. But the teaching pace is really pathetic. Rmb a few months back, I said I learned only 5 moves in 5 week. Slow right? Now that about 3~4+months has passed we only learned an addition of 14 moves. And I really mean moves. Like wtf srsly? The coach ask us to practice the same thing but don't want to continue to teach us. What makes me most dulan is that. Some of those who joined earlier but stil at the same belt rank is really wasting time. I can understand if you're a small kid and take longer to grasp the taolus. But you're a fucking upper sec student, not willing to do things once and do it well. Don't seem intrested but stil attend sessions to chit chat w/ ur friends. Most importantly of all, you don't practice at home and always forget taolu moves. Forever dragging the rather big group of ppl who are keen in learning. No fucking way I'm going to pay $45 to learn 14 moves over such a long period. When the upcoming date to pay for the fees, I tell u, I follow my friend's advice. Turn up, but don't pay. He has done that for 2 period and counting, now I don't see the reason why I should feel guilty of doing so. Completely unproductive at all. Esp when the coach bans you from self practicing without being supervised just cuz u'r holding a weapon. Sit there and rot while those who joined earlier do their gun/spear taolu har? NO FUCKING WAY!

All the more for me to practice hard for NPWushu.
The more you demand discipline from me, the more I'll behave like a kid. And. I don't mind being one.

Project: Skirmish - Untold battles vol 1

2011-03-21T23:43:00.006+08:00

Scene: Human's base military half

Scene2: Human's base arcane half

Scene3: Human's base center, castle

Look at how small the hero would be if I placed him. Purposely scaled the buildings big enough to really be buildings. Spent at least 3 hours+ to source, plan and put buildings at where they should be...Explored these during sec sch days and had it put to a stop when O lvls were nearing. Now I'm trying to make a cinematic again. It'll be far fetch from WoDota's videos, but it'll be an attempt.

Don't really enjoy doing this cause it is too time consuming and you'll be lifeless for facing the comp for long periods... But making a good cinematic is just a great achievement I always wanted. So...I'll do whenever I'm free since I've some time.

Haven't started designing the terrain... It'll be one hell of a work since I'm using the largest possible parameter. :/

Race against time

2011-03-18T18:55:00.003+08:00

Japan has it really hard this time round.

Military fire trucks have been spraying the plant's overheating reactor units for a second day. Water in at least one fuel pool - in reactor 3 - is believed to be dangerously low, exposing the stored fuel rods.
If the ponds run dry, a nuclear chain reaction could release more radiation into the atmosphere. An electricity line has been bulldozed through to the site and engineers are racing to connect it, but they are being hampered by radiation. The plant's operators need the power cable to restart water pumps that pour cold water on the fuel rods. Military helicopters which dropped water from above on Thursday have been kept on standby. Televised footage of the airdrops had shown much of the water blowing away in the wind.
-BBC News - Japan earthquake: Fukushima nuclear alert level raised
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-12783832

I respect those engineers battling with the nuclear reactors, trying to prevent the explosion when they could just run away in fear. But they know the result would be terrible. They're willing to sacrifices themselves to give a chance of preventing the explosion of the nuclear reactors which would release harmful radiations that could ionise human bodies. They themselves know it best, that the radiation level is too high to even have a slim chance of nt getting cancer. Yet, they still do it.

I promise to really take engineering lessons seriously from now onwards. Engineers created destruction which is irreversible already. Young engineers have to find ways to salvage our earth and clean up the mess we engineers created. I'm in for this. I need the knowledge to do so.

Right

2011-03-12T12:51:00.002+08:00

So emo for what?

Today's performance was sooth sailing in a sense since I didn't forget taolu or smthing of such sort. Just a little problem. Muddy field, so our shoes are muddy too. When I got up there to perform, I realize that my shoes was very slippery esp when the base of the shoe has worn off pretty much alr. So didn't go down on the stances etc. So thats all about it.

Yay! Not...

2011-03-04T22:46:00.001+08:00

Finally the holidays are here. Not looking forward to training yet. There's something I want to do first really badly. It's none other than training back my physical aspect before practicing wushu. I don't want to go for tomorrow training. Not with a body that has been inactive for quite a long time. Not with a reluctant mind. Last but not least, not with so little training space. Let me have the time til the 2nd training session to exercise before training through the holiday.

T33HEE

2011-03-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

Shit, getting all pumped up listening to this new bgm. Electronic tech isn't that hard after all... If its like the revision paper, then I'll be really glad :) too easy alr. Time to chiong like what I did for eg2 on the same day;thursday. 6:30wake up, go school, chiong topics,lunch, chiong topics, dinner, chiong topics til library closes. But I'm sure I'll be able to finish somewhere near dinner so... that'll be a bonus. BRING IT ON!

Fat alr

2011-02-26T00:33:00.003+08:00

In this week, I ate lots of things...especially fried meals, heavy meals that make you damn bloated...since I've got to hangout with my classmates for it could be our last few moments. Without training, I'm getting fatter day by day. Now my tummy is --, a huge difference from before... But then, the good thing of hanging out with them is that there'll be fun. For 1 years together, we only went out as a group for limited times. Watch movie, have a meal outside tgt, pool, arcade and LAN... Ok.. back to the main topic. My tummy is expanding not only outwards, but sideways too. Shit... I'm going to control my diet this week and restart exercising back from a square one.

One more paper next friday, before all these torturous stuff is over. But that paper, will be tough... for I've no idea how to understand and score for that module . Teehee~
就只能一天一个topic, 慢慢的从头学起。 Musn't give up, no matter how tough things may be

I have to

2011-02-12T22:44:00.001+08:00

Though I may not show, but all your efforts and goodwill are 心领了. Screwed up performances after performances. I was totally reluctant in going for today's performance. Now its over, but I screwed it up too. But, this could be the turning point. XK said screwing up performances is also an experience, and gave some basic tips to help ensure a smooth sailing one next time. I was focusing too much on "don't forget the taolu" and forgot about chang di, or speaking frankly, I never knew I had to care about that or that there's some "trick" to performances. I'm pretty sorry for screwing up so many performances on my part...and probably would have to screw a few more before I get things right...

:(

2011-02-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

I miss breathing in fresh air. Been more than a week since I have been sneezing and having serious nose blockage daily. I can't clear it no matter how hard I blow my nose or clean it with water...Everyday, sleeping becomes a torture. I can't breath through my nose at all...its so irritating...breathing through my mouth isnt healthy either. Now my lungs is "dirty" due to the dust etc. and it feels stuffy in there, resulting me coughing forcefully now and then. Adding on to that, a fucker smoking from above almost everyday. Fuck this! I WANT FRESH AIR! BUT I'VE GOT NO FUCKING TIME TO CLEAN MY ROOM OFF ITS DUSTS ACCUMULATED FROM THE PREVIOUS YEAR. Final exams coming up one by one. I can only start cleaning earliest next monday. This means that I've to force myself to be so tired before I can sleep and waking up the next day wondering why I don't have the energy. I feel like taking a knife and carve my nose out, clear it, then seal it back up again. Seriously...

Sup people

2011-02-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

Happy Lunar new year~

Haven't done anything. Rotted for three days! Got to devote time for school work tomorrow! Probably going for a jog/run too... Re-watched red cliff, but this time on TV. A good reminder to me of some sort... I'm not out to perform a routine. But I'm learning "moves" of combat. Watching the battles serves as a good call...I can't be doing my taolu like a robot. I must have the feel as though I'm fighting...invisible enermies. Watched "The Myth a.k.a 神话 too, not really epic since its made in 2005. But pretty touching... then I discovered this nice bgm :)

Cause that's what I said I would do from the start.

2011-01-30T16:15:00.001+08:00

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying...

Alittle.

2011-01-30T00:06:00.004+08:00

There's always a point of time when we're sick and tired of the things we're doing. But we know we can't give up just yet...

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Reached home at 3.45 after training. Ate lunch, then played til 5 be4 sleeping. Sleep, wake up, Sleep, wake up, Sleep, wake up. Oh its 930 already. The rain has yet to cease. It gets smaller, then a downpour will follow. Like it's never ending. But I'm sure it will end soon... same as the problems we might be facing. Haven't eat dinner, I'm hungry...

Great, but not really.

2011-01-27T17:43:00.002+08:00

Accomplished the old distance, this time too without stopping, even at the traffic lights. But my speed reduce drastically as the journey progressed. Tired, but worth it. Almost vomitted out my noodles since I ate it almost right after I came back.

Alright.

2011-01-26T20:15:00.004+08:00

I've thought about it today. The difference between training at CC and with NPWushu is that the training I had at the CC is more slack and enjoyable, but you won't improve tremendously. The training with NPWushu could be enjoyable if I'm not taking things so seriously, tougher, but you'll improve tremendously. "Al izz well, bro, Al izz well" the very phrase I learnt from the movie 3-idiots, but I rarely remember to apply it to real life.

Fear,

"We were led by the path we took, while he carved a path of his own. Stumbling, rising, carefree walked he. We fretted about the morrow, he simply reveled in today, living each moment to the fullest... Afraid, we stayed confined in the well. Fearless, he frolicked in the river, never hesitating to swim against the tide.. -introductory song of 3 idiots"

I need to learn how to chillax as there're way too many things in life, so I can't be too serious in dealing with all of them. Loosen up, enjoy the freshness in the air, don't fear about tomorrow.

===

P.S. I almost forgot, I got a 15/20 for EMAT quiz :DD, I shall open up and be a happy person.

What if?

2011-01-25T22:56:00.003+08:00

Everyone around me seem to be training happily though being tired. While I'm stressed because I can't do things right and yuling lended me her pudao while I'm not intending to train seriously today as I was pretty exhausted. When I do my taolu, there's no qi shi or feel to it. It's like I'm being forced to do it. My mind & body is rejecting it, feeling cui n breathless the whole time. I did some training on weekend, daily pumping and situps, played basketball... but none of these seem to help much on my physical aspect. I was pretty ready to take on today's training. But obviously I'm not. There's this motivational postal at sino bishan, it says 'Attitude, make no excuse to be at the top' smething like that... An average person would see it and maybe feel motivated? But a handful of weirdos like me will look at the positioning of the postal, pretty much inline with the danger sign on the left. Who knows behind that postal, could be that danger sign? Making no excuses and having a positive attitude is dangerous, that is what it could also mean. Alright, I'm typing nonsense here... There's a freaking huge gap between their strength and mines, All the while I've been contented with my seemling 'tough' training, of which is obviously, an pathetic amount. I don't go to gyms, they do visit occasionally. What makes me think just relying on a seemingly 'tough' training with my body as weight will allow me to catch up with their strength? I'll need to go for the extremes... not just tough, but the ones that'll make me fall flat on the ground, instill pain and feel like I'm going to die. Pudao isn't an easy weapon to use. It requires strength, 'active stamina'. I have stamina, but 'passive-stamina' would be what I call it... stamina to take on things slowly, but over a long period of time. But that wouldn't help me with this fast paced sports unfortunately. What is an martial art without need to train? A visual art stage performance. Training is not a bonus...IT IS A MUST! I'm pleading myself...to stop whining and just do it. Go for Extremes, don't fear the pain.

A New Week

2011-01-24T18:10:00.003+08:00

It's monday again. But at least I know this week will be more slack compared to the previous week.
Last week has mentally drained me up, so much that I was on the verge of falling sick.
I'm not returning to that state again. At least for now.
EG2 was cancelled today, so, kind of released earlier than usual since our materials lecturer always release us an hour early. That made it even better.
Just took a nap and woke up. The problem I have with afternoon naps is that it feels good when you're lying on the bed trying to sleep. But once you sleep and wake up, you always feel more tired than before. Oh well...I shall stop here, need to do EDCAD assembly, study for EG2 Quiz tomorrow and research on CQ due tmr. Why do I have so much things to do?... I should really stop procrastinating on sundays.

I like this new skin, I can change the things that are falling out of the window. I should try changing that someday...

2011-01-19T22:44:00.003+08:00

It's not that easy huh... I broke the targets I set for myself... Lazy to train when I come back home from school, ate fried food, procrastinated as usual...but theres a slight improvement in my attitude to school work. I've been listening more and doing more work...but still...it's a pathetic amount. Better finish up all my assignment, the deadlines are near. Don't know if I should go for training tmr, since I've got about 5 autocad exercises uncompleted, each will roughly take about 1hr~1hr40mins. Lesson end at 12 tmr so if I rush and do quickly, I might be able to complete them all. We'll see how things go then...

Screwed up materials quiz today -- Last min reading, impossible to cramp things n rmb them thoroughly in 30mins...if luck permits, I might be able to get at about 12/20... I just want to pass n score for the coming tests and enjoy a few days of holiday. But the thought of having to train for comps -- again during the long hols... Getting stressed out already... I've more white hairs as compared to before...and I think it will increase as I progress from yr 1 to 2 to 3... Engineering is tough for someone who suck at maths and nvr took physics... Fuck this shit. I'll pull through!

I'm going to Alt + Q+ Q

2011-01-14T22:26:00.003+08:00

It's high time after pondering whether or not should I quit going for wushu at my CC. Today the JL there explained for the [speaking frankly,] pathetic slow pace. We're like learning 1 or 2 moves per session. It's because of the huge population over at our CC. But thinking of which...$45 a term(probably a period of 2&half month), was reasonable. But now, it doesn't seem so good. 5 weeks ago not including today since I started pondering... exactly 5 moves learnt before today...5 moves...the JL informed us that they'll be starting a new intermediate class at another nearby CC, the one opposite BPP,on tuesday, evening. I've school training exactly at that period. And I find it more fruitful and cheaper. I saw a pretty zai guy of red belt rank practising pudao. I've got to work hard, if not, my ass is going to be kicked during some competition. He seems like a tertiary aged student. I have to own, not get owned...

I've gained lots of fats since christmas came and 3 week ago a pasar malam opened nearby. Been patronizing the shops for :B fried food every now and then... Starting from today onwards, I shall not touch fried food of any kind, ice cream or chocolates and cut down on the beverages I take. For the physical aspect, I'll promise to do at least 100 situps a go even though it's slow, daily, 20pushups a go daily, 3 tang of wa tiao at home, And the rest will be optional if I feel I can carry on. For the homework aspect, I will do whatever I owe by this weekend, revise on topics that i'm unsure and seek help,
Lastly, no more than 2 dota matches a day.

Signed, PC

Happy new year!

2011-01-01T13:25:00.003+08:00

Though I'm not in a very good mood after games spoiled it, I shall not spread the unhappiness with you. Didn't turn up for a single holiday training for wushu. Idk why, but I just don't like the presence of the coaches and atmosphere of sino itself despite having all the training mats and stuffs...I pulled through the pre-IVP training period because I've got no choice. Now that it's just the start of the year, I thought it'ld be good to take a break from wushu and train on my own at home. I can do 五花 or 武花 (whatever it is)with 棍 more fluently already. Right, I shall stop being ego-istic in games and ignore taunts made by other gamers and stuff... My resolution is to be more of a man... and stop chickening out. I need to have the mentality of those parkourers to be able to do dangerous things without hesitating and train to be ready of cos... So, till then!

Wushu AGM Camp!

2010-12-24T00:22:00.012+08:00

Day 1
After packing for about 2hours, I headed to school for the camp. Firstly, we had the very first games station done by Kelvin and Xiao kai. I forgot the name, its either net or web... I was miraculously carried over by my team since I'm so heavy.

Then the 2nd part of it which required lots of teamwork. I came to realise I'm a selfish person :/

Then we headed to makan place for the next station done by Hong Ming. Which required us to stick our foot into a pail of gross solution made up of tomato sause, banana skin, flour and egg if im not wrong... to find mini majong tiles and then match them up to form words

Then we headed to somewhere near block 39 to play Wang Shuang's station which required us to carry a cup over a distance with certain parts determined by the lots we drew then finally dump the water into a pail.

Then we headed a level down to play the last station made by Cat. A warzone of flour, butter and egg. We were to play captain's ball on it. Started off with a ball, then a waterbomb, then an egg. Huiling has some mysterious power to catch thrown egg without leaving a crack. 多年来练的功夫？LOL!

Then some terrible washing off of those butter T.T... before heading off to buy breakfast for 2 days... Budget was $50 bucks for both days...So had to be calculative of prices and ended up buying some cheap jam- - that doesn't seem to be a jam... more like jelly lol. Carried those heavy load from bukit timah shopping centre back to loft...Then it was AGM by the old com to introduce new comm. Then it was the night walk...shall nt go in details I'm lazy to write lol ...Then played some L4D2 with jiewei, vern and someone else i forgot who before sleeping at 2am+ Then woke up around 6+ and went back to sleep and woke up around 7.20am.

Day 2
To be continued tomorrow :D procrastinating xD

Shag, but not to the max.

2010-11-30T21:18:00.005+08:00

Woke up at 7am after sleeping for 7 hours. Started doing Maths Online Learning(MOL) until 10.25 where I prepared to go to school. Reached school after a freaking warm bus ride and continued to do maths. Then changed venue and continued to do maths until 1.50 before buying some snack for lunch. Lesson from 2 til 5. Went for the ME FOC GL recruitment talk until 6.45 thereabout before heading to CCA amidst the heavy rain. Had only vegetarian porridge(breakfast) and snack(lunch) for today. Went to CCA without much energy. And the outcome of today's training is pretty obvious...If only, I had the battery that Pearle, a CCA mate, runs on. She never seem to run out of energy --.

Offtopic: I finally made a twitter account. To conveniently post short thoughts without having to blog.

Emptiness within.

2010-11-27T01:03:00.003+08:00

Jealousy. envying others who're rich, smarter or better in any aspect. It's sad to have a personality that sucks. There's no way I could change the fact. I constantly try to 'fill' my emptiness by trying to prove I'm worth something at least. But unfortunately not, I didn't get any better. A 2nd D grade for extemporaneous speaking for COMISS, though I tried harder and had more preperation time. I can convey my thoughts through typing, but not speaking. Often finding myself trying to end a conversation fast or talk and spew nonsensical no link crap halfway throughout. When you watch shows and movies. It's always the 'righteous ally of the good side' who is powerful, strong and the one who will always be the hero. While the enermy of the 'good' side often plagued by revenge thoughts or emptiness, gets incredibly strong for a short moment as they have a desire to be something great, but somehow the ally of the 'good' side will always win because the things that plague the 'evil' side are their shortcoming. Very much as I would like to deny, I seem to belong to the 'evil' side, the side that will never be the heroes that triumphs.

2010-11-24T21:04:00.003+08:00

Cui

2010-11-23T22:34:00.003+08:00

Didn't feel good today. Got easily tired after doing a few things...probably because I sat at home and play computers games once I woke up til the time when I headed to school for CCA lol. Too much inactivity leading to fatigue and temporary decrease of standard in physical aspects. Anyway here's my cool base :) that I spent 1hr 20mins rearranging ok~ LOL. No life.
and its actual view

Operation Lipid incineration.

2010-11-20T17:02:00.002+08:00

I shall embark on my mission to shed fats starting tomorrow. Sucks to be fat...need to carry extra load and can't do those nice moves for wushu.

: |

2010-11-18T22:31:00.003+08:00

IS was alright... started on project work and research skills. Then 4 hours was gone in a blink of an eye. Went for training today. Really few people turned up and we went to train at a new spot. Didn't have the mood to train today - -... feeling lazy and I was rather tired for having to wake up at 545am. I should be happy that the others didn't turn up for training so that I get more training and can improve faster, or should I be demoralized simply for the fact that they didn't turn up. Actually it doesn't really matter, since thurs is a self training day...can't expect everyone to turn up. I hope I can find the techniques for the taolu I'm currently learning. I'm so freaking tired...good night.

Sigh...

2010-11-17T20:04:00.002+08:00

I'm too used to bottling up my emotions...though I don't really hide them. Too used to the 'shut up and live life' attitude, that I find myself unable to communicate well through form of speaking. got a D for my first COMISS assessment last week. The only one in the class with a D...
Tomorrow's comiss again... sigh...

Numb.

2010-11-15T20:32:00.003+08:00

Been five years, should've gotten used to being a lone wolf by now.

3 idiots is a nice movie!

2010-11-13T20:19:00.007+08:00

This movie is a touching and funny movie about 3 engineering students. Do watch it on youtube or somewhere else. Find those with english subtitles to understand what they're saying. link to 1st part, find the rest uploaded at profile page of the uploader... Link. Click on the [CC] button below the video screen to enable subtitles.

Serious stuff.

2010-11-09T21:27:00.002+08:00

Serious shit today lol. Actually all the nominees were great. I could just raise up my hand through if there was a need. They're all competent enough. Long weapon overcrowding ~~ Got to work hard against so many opponents! I've finally decided to practice and be able to do those cartwheel, xuanzi etc. Since ystd lol. But its alright, if there's training on thurs I might wana go. If not I will go on sat. I'm fired up!

An empty win.

2010-11-07T16:58:00.002+08:00

Though we won for some reason. It doesn't content me. I mean...we didn't practice much after IVP, no feel for the competition...we simply went up and perform not to our best standard. I was pretty right about it being a crap competition. International Championship lol... But looking at the bright side, I'm finally free from the competitions! Can finally focus on school work.

Finally! The end I've been waiting for.

2010-11-06T22:48:00.012+08:00

After tomorrow, I'll be a free guy. We've done this for IVP, there's nothing to fear. There's no great performance/cheer to fire our spirit up before taking on the stage. What's left for us is our team. We've to be even fiercer than IVP. Fear nothing. It's our last group competition for this year! Hold on for just a minute + and we're good to go. Don't give up halfway despite making a mistake. Get hold of yourself, make a fast recovery. Don't nua halfway. Hold on to the end!

加油加油加油！

Hope

2010-11-04T23:40:00.003+08:00

Idk who to pray to. But I really hope jiti can practice as much as possible on saturday. Change in position and formation and group member. It's never going to be the same as IVP. I really feel that we need more practices. But no one will be training tomorrow. Got to grasp hold and be comfortable in the position im in right now. I've to re-train my jumps and stuffs too...can't really jump str8 now. 加油ah! Though this competition isn't as 'important' as IVP. We simply have to put up a great show once we're in it.

Edit : Yay jitipudao video! I'm glad I didn't really make big mistakes

I'm the one standing on the last row(back) on the left. =D

Why?

2010-11-03T23:33:00.003+08:00

So much for shit.

Recovered in a way, but back to a square one in another.

2010-11-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

My right leg finally recovered. Not fully though, but till and extent where the pain is tolerable for normal stretching.

Tiring day, full of lecture and tutorial 9-5pm. Went to the old store house to help wrap the pudaos den bring it to sino. The bus ride was fun lol~ with super high people -- We sort arrived at 7.30 and that leaves little time for settling down, started training as soon as we got there. My fats are back - - and my stamina kind of deproved after tons of sleep as a reward for the competition. I've got to lose them all, and restart all over again, it's gona be tedious, but I have to do it. It's my responsibility.

Great job NPWushu

2010-10-31T09:45:00.004+08:00

Yay overall champs ystd, everyone did well! I was actually fearing after watching the china ppl do their taolu - -. But then again every single one did very well, despite some having problems that can't be controlled, so don't be disappointed. We were like the most enthu group there lor - - cheering for our mates well while other were silent. Great job to my beloved jiti pudao^^ we were pretty cui during our trainings, but somehow we made it and clinched the only award^^. I believe I screwed up some parts though, like getting dizzy after the spins, but just hold on awhile and continue with the taolu, all i rmb was the last part while exitin, couldn't follow gab yews footpace, - - so I just walked normally out - -, waiting for the videos to be uploaded if there's any.

Now the international competition, in a weeks time right? I'll train harder to prevent such things from happening again :D

Edit : I Should really start redo-ing situp n pushups alrdy. haven't done any for a long period of time and 've been eating alot lately @@

Jiayou NPWushu!

2010-10-29T20:11:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow's the day. What is there to fear? The short 1 minute+ will be gone in split second. JUST GO ALL OUT PC, YOU CAN DO IT!

Diana Ross - If we hold on together [Increase volume if you can't hear, it's pretty soft]

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

WHAT IS THERE TO FEAR?
Something worth fighting for!

相信自己！

Sorry, no emo post. Just a whine post.

2010-10-26T22:21:00.004+08:00

I thought it was just a simple pull of muscle and overstretching. I didn't heal a single bit. Infact, it's getting worse. I can't see if there is blue black, but I think there is no blue black. It's like an internal bruise of some sort. It feels like a bruised blue-black wound when you press it, except, it doesn't hurt on the skin, but underneath. Now even sitting properly is hard since I need to rest the upper part of my thigh on the chair. Just by sitting, it hurts already - -... I don't think it will heal by tomorrow or the day after. But I'll be spamming protein consumables to speed it up.

Once again. Shut up mind.

2010-10-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

Pulled my right thigh muscles today. Due to excessive stretching on that leg.

I realize everytime, when I'm slow or fast in doing a move, I will be thinking 'shit out of sync'... then I'll either lose balance or execute the moves badly by rushing through them or trying to slow down or speed up in mid air(for the forward jump slashes). If it's neither, then I'll be probably out of breath and want to slack abit. 3 more trainings left to create miracle. I shall stop posting until the competitions are over. This place is making me feel emo.

5days and a few hours left.

2010-10-24T12:59:00.002+08:00

I've been wandering around in this mist that reduces my vision. I've been doing things without a goal. I have to look ahead. Be clear of what I'm doing. It's no longer about getting stronger. It's approaching and I've to be ready.

多少次了？

2010-10-23T14:32:00.002+08:00

Just how many time have I been disappointed with myself because of dumb mistakes? Thought today was our last official training, and it's gona be a long one. Thought I had plenty of time to get into the mood to do taolu and do it well... But it lasted not more than 1h30min including breaks. Really hoped it lasted longer. I still need to train... Can blame no one but myself for not making full use of the opportunity.

1 more thing. He is getting better and better in wushu day by day. While I'm moving at such a pathetic pace. I don't want to be the weakest of all there. I need to improve faster.

Hazy crap.

2010-10-21T23:39:00.003+08:00

The PSI just crossed 100 at 6pm today, according to an ST article.

Went for training on wed n today. The haze is causing my nose blockage. Hard to breathe through the mouth only and do taolus. The oxygen supply simply isn't enough for me. Adding on to the fact that I didn't do any physical training except those at sino. Wasn't in a right 'form' to train and saw de-provement on wed. Went again today since time is short and I'll be missing tomorrow's session by going for CC Wushu. Improved abit despite having the nose problem plague-ing me still. The coach says I don't have the 'spirit' while I do my taolu, gave me some tips. But then, I already felt as though I was doing it with 'spirit'. Time is short, gotta figure that out fast.

Feverish.

2010-10-19T20:04:00.004+08:00

Woke up with throat feeling painful and dry. With the haze, Now I'm not feeling well. Didn't get to train because of the haze today. Did daily situps anyway. After today, it'll be just 10 days left. School's restarting in 5 days time. I have to hang on...

Great bleach episode today.

Wee~

2010-10-18T23:26:00.004+08:00

Met the same friends at 9 and headed to ECP. Rode bike for 4 + hours, before we called it a day at about 4.20pm. Weather was great at the start, but then signs of thunderstorm came, but it was just a false alarm, weather was great again. Wanted to ride 15km to changi, but vernon was tired cuz of his leg and hadn't exercised for a long period of time. So we returned at half of the journey. But we'll definitely reach there the next time. So yea... got on a bus at around 4.55pm, didn't have time to go back n take a shower b4 going for training, hence headed to katong str8. Had dinner and reached sino at 5.20. Sat there and rot for about 40~50mins b4 cat and huiling came. Now, I know huiling's trick of breaking into sino lol. I felt stupid after knowing how she break in, since I was sitting right infront of the 'secret' entrance. Then trained abit, before resting since I was pretty tired from riding the bike today. Training was great, I was supposed to be more cui. But I felt I did the things better than usual instead. Now I can finally have some good rest.

对不起

2010-10-15T22:47:00.002+08:00

Just recieved darren's msg. Can only be nothing but sorry. It's nothing unexpected... For someone who train so hard, perhaps daily? for individual event and as the 'leader' of the jiti group, its definitely nerve-wrecking to see the team not putting as much effort as she is. Especially when the competitions are so near. I would like to apologize, but probably don't have the guts to. For not giving in as much, and missing certain training dates. I can't promise anything like, I will improve tenfold and not mess up the tidiness of the group. I can only 尽力而为， because I know my current limits.

On the other hand, while missing today's training. I went for CC Wushu session to 'face my failure as a man'. Miraculously, I passed. Barely. At least its a load off my mind. I can focus better now, I suppose?

Great.

2010-10-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

Completed the whole route without intentional stoppings. Except for the traffic lights. Didn't run fast nor jog, did it at my own pace and that whole ordeal lasted for 40~50 minutes. Feels great to have accomplished this new distance.

Why am I happy ? The run didn't start off quite well, with my mind constantly telling me give up after I reached pioneer JC, as I am pretty tired from today's walking while pei-ing vern,yh and jere to shop at town and the morning carrying of stuff to and back. Tired isn't a good word, rather I was not in my best condition for a run. I didn't give up of coz, I just ignore those thoughts I have, and keep running. Until I reached the 1st half of my usual route(@Regent Sec), I didn't want to turn back, instead I took on a longer route despite being demotivated and 'tired'. I decided to stop thinking and just keep running. I'm glad to say I didn't stop/giveup halfway. Suprisingly the longer route didn't make me feel that tired as compared to my usual route. Maybe its because...running back the same track you came from is 'tiring'. I always have this thought. "Run so long only halfway, now abit tired alrdy...still need to go back from where I came from..." Its more refreshing to run on the longer route, since you don't see the same old things and people that u once ran past.

Ok. Back to today's entry.
Went to school to help out in moving, in the end, there was cockup and didn't manage to move.Then went to far east w/ vernon, yh, jeremy. Had kfc for lunch. Been almost another 2 year since I last ate fastfood due to health probs. Then walked around looking at things and vernon bought me a new wallet n tshirt for bdae present, with the help of advise on choice by yh n jere lol. Really thankful since my current wallet is worn out, but I use it because I don't have to be afraid if it's dirty and can use it for sports purposes. I'll probably use it still for basketball etc. The new one I'll use it for the rest. Then walked to ngee ann city > 313@somerset and walked around looking at things then the end.

Diam liao la

2010-10-13T23:08:00.003+08:00

Fucking mind.

The hardest part of ending, is starting again.

2010-10-12T01:25:00.003+08:00

Still haven't got over the fact that I screwed up my CC Wushu's promo exam. All the people who took the exam on that day were kids(becuz its a beginner white belt promo). Yet someone so old like me, screwed up. /emo...

Training today was rather tiring...the games on every monday is really... It's fun no doubt, but freaking tiring can. Ran til my mouth and throat went dry, literally. So hard to even swallow, even my saliva dried up --. I was so looking forward to break after jibengong, since I would be able to finally get some water. Finally got my feiyue shoes, but size 42. Its ok, tried wearing it, shouldn't be too big a problem except hoping that I won't break any toenails. Thats it for the day I guess.

It seems that I simply have to keep training. Starting again!

I thought it felt right, but that right was wrong

2010-10-09T21:49:00.012+08:00

Went for training today. Made some progress... I suppose? My physical training sorta improved my stamina, didn't feel too tired from today's training.
After training ended at 3, went to eunos to camp there until CC wushu promo exam starts. I was very confident about the exam, and trying to aim at least a silver pass. Compared to my peers taking the exam with me who were really nervous. When my turn is getting closer, I got alittle nervous, but told myself I can do it, however, I was the only one who screwed up. I was supposed to do 弹腿2，4，8 and 功力拳。 Once the exam commenced for my turn, I went into a trance, focusing on my speed, strength and 功架。 Sorta breezed through 弹腿2，4，8 without even realizing it。 It was only until 功力拳 halfway, I made a small mistake by doing the wrong move. I　ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｄｉｄ　ｓｏｍｅｔｈｉｎｇ　ｆｒｏｍ　弹腿第八。　Ｓｏ　Ｉ　ｒｅａｌｉｓｅ　ｓｏｍｅｔｈｉｎｇ　ｗａｓ　ｗｅｉｒｄ　ａｎｄ　ｗｒｏｎｇ，Ｉ　ｐａｎｉｃｋｅｄ　ａｎｄ　ｆｏｒｇｏｔ　ｔｏ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｍｙ　ｃｏｏｌ　ａｎｄ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｏｆ　ｈｏｗ　ｔｏ　ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅ．　Ｉ　ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｓｋｉｐｐｅｄ　ｏｎｅ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｍａｊｏｒ　ｐａｒｔ　ｏｆ　功力拳，　ｔｈｅ　三轮抛越ｏｒ　ｗ／ｅ　ｕ　ｃａｌｌ　ｉｔ　＋　ｔｈｅ　３　ｄｒａｇ，ｖｅｒｔｉｃａｌ　ｐｕｓｈ　ａｎｄ　冲拳。　Ｉ　ｏｎｌｙ　ｒｅａｌｉｓｅｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｍｙ　ｅｘａｍｉｎａｔｉｏｎ．　Ｓｃｒｅｗｅｄ　ｍａｎ，　５　ｍｏｎｔｈ　ｌａｔｅｒ　ｒｅｔａｋｅ　ｂａ　－－ｓｉｎｃｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｏａｃｈｅｓ　ｓａｙ　ｉｆ　ｙｏｕ　ｆｏｒｇｅｔ　ｔａｏｌｕ　＝ｆａｉｌ．　Ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｒｅｍｅｍｂｅｒ　ｔｏ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｃａｌｍ　ａｎｄ　ｎｏｔ　ｐａｎｉｃｋ　ｎｘｔ　ｔｉｍｅ．　Ｉ seriously have to.　

Lyrics--------------　（Ｂｏｌｄｅｄ　ａｒｅ　ｗｈａｔ　Ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉｓ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｔｒｕｅ）

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Cuz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear.

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts we're spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/waiting-for-the-end-lyrics-linkin-park.html ]

I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Coz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and th fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)
-metrolyrics.com

Let's go!

2010-10-07T12:18:00.006+08:00

Training time.

Edit: Here, I'm back approximately 1 hours later.

-100 situps
-20 pushups
-5 sets of 'suicide', 3 of which were cui ones.
-some minor stretching.

I chickened out from training again. Exhausted from the 'suicides'. When will I ever improve. Easier said than done.
*suicide = shuttle run from one end of a basketball court to 1/4 of the court, back and to 1/2 of court, back, to 3/4 court back and to the other end of the court. Introduced by a friend.

Edit 2 : Didn't run today :/ did another 100 situps and 20 pushups.

Today's training didnt go well.

Sigh...

2010-10-06T23:09:00.005+08:00

Why do I suck so bad. I was the one who screwed up their neatness. I'm slow already, being tired makes me slower. Can't even land properly after the jumps. Stances not low. I still don't know when should we proceed or stop. I only did the moves after they started moving. Fuck this man. I need to improve on my speed and adapt my stamina to cope with speed.

Don't cease, dear infuriated feelings. I need you to give me strength for tomorrow training. Disappointed with myself yet again.

Day #1

2010-10-05T23:42:00.004+08:00

Training have been going fine.
-jog+run for about 2.6km without stopping
-100 daily situps
-20 pushups
-going through taolu briefly
-10x2 set of lunges to improve 弓步
-stretching

Though the above listed are not very much, but it should help improve my wushu.

I'm still not going all out - -
I won't achieve anything if I mind the time span taken for achieving a goal.

Bearing Conviction.

2010-10-04T23:10:00.008+08:00

If the endless dream guides your spirit,conquer it! Bear conviction behind your flag! -One Piece, Gol.D.Roger

Though I'm no pirate and have no flag, I will bear my conviction. Time is seriously short, this is something I must do. I didn't work this whole holiday because I need to commit to jiti pudao for competition. As Hu JL told us today, some of us have poor wushu base because we didn't get exposed to wushu since young. I'm fully aware of that from the start. All the reason more to train hard. So we're competing against 2 other teams and there is only 1 champion, no runner-up etc. Pearle said, SP are specialized in jiti dao and they have a high chance of winning. Even though how cui we may be now, we still have 25 more day to train. But real training days are much limited. Even so, I will go all out to improve myself on non-training days. I DO NOT want to remind myself to not spend time on playing computer games. I WILL GO ALL OUT from tomorrow onwards! This week, I have wushu as top priority, since I'm having CC Wushu exam in the evening on sat and lots to improve on jiti.

But for now, let me rest for tomorrow and the week ahead.

Nice pic right?

R.I.P MM Lee's Wife.

2010-10-02T22:07:00.002+08:00

MRS Lee Kuan Yew, wife of Minister Mentor, died today at home at 5.40 pm at age 89. -ST

R.I.P

Alright back to personal posting. Went to training on friday, kinda sad no one from jiti came down except for gabriel though he had to practice his individual events. Tried making effort to increase my speed in 'zha-ing' the pudao, but was futile. Hurt one of my toe after jumping down from the stage and overstrained that toe with my body weight. How fail can I be... and my right leg is stiff-er than it used to be

Went to training this morning again, got to know that zoey got removed from the jiti and was replaced by yuling. At least like 5 of the jiti came down today. Only realized that I didn't go down on my stances well enough until today when I got to face the mirror to check myself. No wonder allicia was emphasising on some of us not going down on the stances, when I had that feeling I'm alrdy low on the stances. Todays' training lasted for a mere two hours, but we got to fine-tune some parts. Hope I won't forget what has been taught today by the next session.

Time is short, but we can do it.

I shall not emo.

2010-09-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

That's what I should do.

2010-09-26T21:53:00.004+08:00

Tell me why do I feel so pathetic? Maybe I really am pathetic.

不想也不要再想了，去睡吧。。。

Survived.

2010-09-26T19:47:00.005+08:00

I made it through. But I feel like a total weakling.

Sunday, Training Camp day 3
Went to school for wushu training, was late by alittle though.
Started off with sprints as warm up, then ji ben gong then practice jiti pudao.
I wonder how I made through the practice with that little pain, which aggravated later on, revealing raw meat once again. Though I made it through, but I didn't perform well enough. Then after that was more practice with pudao, was breathless, tired after a few full taolu was not in the mood to 'zha' the pudao either due to the pain. I wonder how does xk practice, his moves swift and strong. Doesn't his hand hurt after training so long with pudao? Well that aside, afterward was loft. No morning training thank god and training ended early.
Slacked in the loft room shared by issac,jj,gabfoo,alton,alistair,kelv,junan,mcenroe n jerry. Brought my lappy with me so I wouldn't get bored for the 3 hours. After that was training again. Played some net game for like 10+mins be4 the coach came. Then after stretching was training our taolus, then it was running up n down of the stairs, then jumping up and down, and 10sprints, then jogging some distance in 20min. Final part was crunches, Hu JL said whoever who feel that they cant do any more crunches step out and dont drag the rest down with them. I saw that coming, but that "don't drag the rest down with them" line made my thoughts waver, and fell for that trap. Why would I react to that line? Because I feel that I'm pathetic compared to the rest of them.

I wonder if shes okay? She seemed to be tearing when she stood beside me after that jog.

恐惧

2010-09-25T21:28:00.003+08:00

Friday, Training Camp day 1

Went to clubhouse then slacked while the others checked in to the loft. The training from 4~7. Freaking tiring since I gave in much of what I'm capable of. Not gona explain the details here. After training, headed to CC for wushu til 10. Tanked 5 hours of training with a breakfast at 9 in the morning. Legs cui, muscle cramp during cc wushu.

Saturday, Training Camp day 2

Reported for training at 8.30am, slightly late though. Warmed up, and trained again. Was hesitant in giving my best, since I haven't really fully recovered from yesterdays 5 hours of training and I had developed a fear in me. I feared today's training was gonna be worst than yesterday. After ji ben gong was jiti pudao training on coordination. Because the pudao I was holding had these bolt and nuts. When we "zha" the pudao with force, there is lots of friction and the nut will scrape our skin resulting to the skin on my palm peeling to reveal raw meat. It hurts when I hold a pudao, not to mention using more force to "zha" it, since it requires more strength due to its flexible blade. Was really tired at a point of time, but Hu JL told us to increase our speed and strength. The 3 of us, jerry,gab n me were holding the yellow pudaos. I bet we 3 definitely had peeled skin that hurts when we hold something or wash our hands. I was raging inside because of the requirements Hu JL want from us alongside the pain the 3 of us are already withstanding with our hands. I over applied strength on the 'swing-raise' move, with my head lowered, I stabbed my head with the metal piece at the handle. It hurts and I expected bleeding. Then got my wound cleaned and fixed. Then watch them continue with their PT. Then slack for 3 hours in the loft. Then training again, not that tough as compared to Hu JL because it was of a different coach. Thank god. But tomorrows definitely gonna be tougher. I don't want to hesitate again. And no more raging. Though it gives me some temporary strength to get me through some tough times, it could result in a self-pwnage like today.

冲！

2010-09-24T00:25:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is NPWushu training camp. Not really a camp for me though :p, since I'm not staying overnight. But still, I'll train hard! Tomorrow, is also the day for getting approval from coaches for CC Wushu examination/promotion. I will practice tomorrow morning before I set off to school for the camp. Training for the camp ends at 7, which means I'll get to go for CC Wushu approval trial. Though I'ld be late by alittle, but it's fine I guess, not like I've never been late before. XD.

Just chatted w/ her on msn. Not really chat, but asked her something. I thought she always had high expectations of people and I felt that she was fierce and all that. But her last message made me change my opinion of her and I remember something I almost forgot;I used to laugh to her silly antics on a few occasion.

Tired

2010-09-21T18:58:00.003+08:00

Today was solely for regeneration. I slept 3 times after I woke up at 930am, each lasting around 2 hours. My legs are aching like right mad now. But it feels good. Maybe this is what I've always wanted. To be exhausted, like an insignificant warrior on the battlefield, fighting to his last breath, fighting to survive. I've stopped mmorpg-ing for the sake of this. Good that I stopped, now I feel that I have much more time for everything else. Trying hard to kick away my old self, the sloth ridden me.

Training, Training and more Training!

2010-09-20T23:27:00.008+08:00

I'm playing a game right now. To be stronger, I'll need to train. Good judgment comes from experience, so don't be afraid to fail.

Like finally we got to hold a pudao to do our jiti. Gun is so light...a sudden change in weight and I couldn't adapt. Not like I've never held a pudao be4, I almost forgot how much it weighs. Got called up for performance after warm up, totally not ready...first time holding pudao for jiti, moves not recapped, hesitation here and there, no doubt I screwed it up.

2010-09-18T22:54:00.006+08:00

Training again today.
Doing taolus without being sure of the steps = No confidence. Without confidence, you won't have that spirit. I really need to get familiarized with the moves. I won't want to bring the team down.

我从来没说过。
Got the message?

Friday.

2010-09-17T22:54:00.003+08:00

= = misunderstood about jiti training dates. I thought it was just wed n sat, but forgot that those were just only compulsory dates. Got enlightened today that training was actually on mon,wed,fri and sat.

Just came back from CC Wushu. Today was supposed to be the day where we get to demostrate our capability on our taolus for examination. But it rained, looks like I can only get the approval next week, but it clashes with jiti training. Jiti is very important, but that is equally important in a sense too... since examination is on oct 9th, missing it would mean a load of months be4 the next examination period. Even if I go to the CC earlier for approval demo, I need at least 1h and 15mins minimum, to rush from cck to katong. Nvm, I'll see how it goes by then.

Hmm...

2010-09-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

Today was...
Went to Sino for Jiti Pudao training. MRT rides really bore the fucking shit out of me. I can do nothing but, stare out of the windows looking at scenery for approximately 40minutes before getting on the circle line trains and staring at the walls of the tunnel and the wires for about 15minutes. And I still keep getting out of the wrong exit~at paya lebar stn...Oh well, thats one whole thing I really hate about going to Sino lol. Not to mention the return journey.

Alright, reached sino, played games for warmup. My stamina dropped like nuts. I'm like the only retard panting so hard for air and my flexibility deproved. I haven't really exercise since 1 week before the exams up til date except doing pushups and situps at home. It's time for me to work back on my physical fitness. Same with flexibility. Started learning jiti pudao taolu, the front parts were already taught by xk. But then, I brought forward my mistakes and was only fine tuned today. Good thing actually.

2nd day of being a botak.

2010-09-13T22:53:00.002+08:00

Shaved my head on sunday. Went to my grandma house after mia-ing for long because of exams. Relatives questioned if I was enlisted. wtheck.

Alright, today went to school to help out in the spring cleaning of cca room, though there wasn't much to do. Then slacked after that...listened to the seniors chatting,which was a good enough entertainment, while the others played monopoly. Then lunch, then wait til 表演服 come. By that time I was half sian-ed alrdy. Paid up, and got it finally. The colour turned out to be nice. Everyone was enjoying and putting on lol. alright thats all.

I will stop whatever I've done up till now so far, because I realize I'm wasting too much time, accomplishing nothing.

I'm screwed seriously.

2010-09-11T18:25:00.007+08:00

Woke up unsuspectingly, thinking it was friday. Started off my morning by turning on my comp, logging onto the game I'm playing. Then played until 2+ pm before I logged onto facebook. (Because I need to collect my products on Pirates Ahoy! a facebook game). The first thing I saw was a status update from Gabriel.

I only took an SS now, but not at 2+. When it says 4 hours ago. What went through my mind was... "cck to katong...hmm, going to sino?" And still I didn't suspect anything because hongming sent an email, stating that there are training sessions on monday, wed and fridays. All at sino during holidays. Though I know training was in the evening, but I still, for some reason, didn't suspect anything. So I carried on playing games, until 6+. I was actually practicing CC Wushu's taolu for "later on" because, I always have CC wushu on fridays. And planning for "tomorrow"'s trip to sino for jiti pudao training. My mom came back soon after I stopped playing and made dinner for me. I told her that I'll need wushu pants so she will have to wash it. She replied "你们（me and my bro)昨天有去武术meh?". I thought it was weird for her to say that, since we only have wushu session "today";friday. Then I replied "今天有武术吗，武术后把武术裤子洗，明天早上我需要。“ She replied,"今天有武术meh?今天星期六leh" I even argued back thinking that she was the one who mixed up the dates. Only realise today was saturday after double checking it with my computer date-time display. I was like WTF?

It all boiled down to a basketball match on "Wednesday". That day, one of my friend jio-ed me to play bball. shall not type out the details. But go str8 to point here...another friend didn't reply to my friends sms for bball that day, so I asked him whats the day because maybe he is having exam? He replied wednesday, so I really assumed it was wednesday and use that as a gauge for knowing what day is it.

So, there we go 2 days after the match, which is today. I assumed that today was friday and didn't turn up for jiti training --... adding on to that, I didn't know "thursday" was already friday and there was no CC wushu session becuz of hari raya.

Damn...I'm really screwed up now. Considering the fact that I didn't turn up for xuanba2, because i didn't know if the name was really mine. I still got selected for jiti pudao yesterday when cat sent me an sms. Now, I didnt attend the very first training just because of my fucking retarded mistake. What would the people in NPWushu think about me now...someone who's acting big shot by not attending training for some retarded reason?... fucking screwed. I doubt they will even believe I mixed up days...I hope I don't get removed out of jiti pudao group.

9 more hours till freedom.

2010-09-06T07:19:00.001+08:00

Give it all I've got.

4days countdown. To EG1 Paper

2010-08-29T00:27:00.002+08:00

Shall not be disheartened by my lack of determination to do things. 4 days, now change of plan. Lets make it more strategic, focus on the 1st 2 paper, and spend friday along with the weekends on ELTECH.

I'm thankful for the reminder that just surfaced. Time is short, I'm competing with people that really put in hardwork. I shouldn't give up just yet. I must have no hesitation.

Sacrifice

2010-08-22T23:50:00.003+08:00

9 days left for examination. What done is done, cannot be undone...No point whining.

True. Because we humans are humans afterall. We can't do everything at one time and yet reap the full benefit. The more we span our focus, the less we master on each different aspect of the things we have on our hand. Now it's 9 days, 3days per module for me to study. The days in between papers are a bonus. I've been enjoying myself as though it's holiday already. Now. Get this straight...one focus...one direction... I simply have to do it. I'm going to stop my games, only playing at night.

This is my exam timetable. I'll study EngMEC first since I suck pretty much at this. Then EG1 and finally ELTECH using bonus days to master it more.

I have to get in a trance of studying and all these shall be over by then.

忍

2010-08-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

Wow. 1 Week is just gone like that. Cleared OBM, which means, I have only 3 papers to worry about after the study break. 2 more weeks to go and I've to learn everything from its basic til I master them. I'll start brief study on Sunday then full-time ones on the coming week. It's my grade, my understanding and my responsibility that I become a competent engineer next time if i somehow end up being one. Ok.

Back to Wushu. I actually skipped Tuesday's training, completely forgetting the planned XuanZi lesson that xk told me last week. For a simple reason, lazy, study for obm(excuse), don't want to stink up the bus(another excuse). But when i took the bus home on wed, there was so little people. Regretted not going. But what done is done. Shall continue with the pudao training after their YOG performance, it's better if they focus on that for now. Went to CC Wushu session today, my right leg, still as stiff as ever. The feeling of overstretching still there. But I realized one thing. If my right leg continues to give me this problem, and I 'take' precaution and don't overpush that leg, my flexibility won't go anywhere. I tanked the pain, kick as I should, stretch as I should, though it hurts, it's the only way out. So I just have to 忍 the pain, have the mindset that I came here to tear the muscles. To not hold back, I shall get stronger.

Tired

2010-08-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

I made a promise on Sunday 31 July 2010, to myself. The promise was to give the things I have to do my best, and be tired at the end of the week. Well... looking back, I gave 70% of my best and now I am here typing this post. It wasn't really successful, but I could say that it was good enough. I literally gave in all that I could during the last two days of the school semester. I might have overdid in giving my best for the last session of SnW netball, that I was rather tired for wushu. But nevertheless, I tried all I could. Woke up in the morning today, with elbow pain, back pain, and acute pain when I breathe in. Now the back pain is more severe lol... hope I recover alittle by tomorrow. Anyway, rushed compro stage 3 by today and managed to complete it by skipping EL Tech Tutorial. Well, not really skip though, I came for the last 30min and completed the last tutorial, submitted, and off I go lol. The week's not over yet unfortunately. I need to rush to complete EL Tech Web tutorial and eng mec's web tutorial. Deadlines are 9thAug & 27thAug respectively. I guess I really need to train up more on my stamina...since I often find myself breathless and tired after doing a taolu. And finally, yea, pudao taolu, have to remember and practice more.

2010-07-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

There won't be IJ for now. Went to school for SnW. That guy finally didn't give attitude alrdy. Great ain't it? But after SnW, it's as boring as ever. Stoning for 1 and a half hour. But you can't compare that to tuesday. 3 and a half freaking hours before CCA starts. Well well...hmm. CCA. very little people turned up. No one to practice jitiquan with. My right leg is healing already, no pain lifting. But the pain is there when i do a kick. All thx to the help of spamming protein consumables like milk, cheese etc. on wednesday night. Got bored after practicing jitiquan alone, can't perfect my moves when my leg is injured, only can do brief ones. So I thought there was no point practicing. Then the captain taught me part of his 朴刀 taolu. See him do like very easy, but when I tried, it wasn't easy at all. I never thought 朴刀 would be heavy. Though in reality it is heavy, definitely. I still remember the steps and the details he taught me. Gonna practice it. Since I want to learn more, I have to do it right on tuesday.

Happy for once

2010-07-26T22:26:00.002+08:00

I ♥ today :D

Sleeping with early morning heavy shower, the important thing is, there isn't any thunder! :D How I'ld love to have such weather while im sleeping. Though I had to get up to go to school, it was great while it lasted. So... basically, went to school in the morning without frets since I've done my homework. Learnt something out of cprog's tutorial and didn't fall asleep during EL Tech as I could finally understand what the lecturer is explaining. After lunch, there wasn't any practical for my class (V), free time! Man just taking out 2 hours of lesson could make us not dread our timetable I swear. So basically, did some MOL for revising complex number. from about 12.30 ~2. Then Jenny insisted that we go to the board games room since she wanted to play lol. Played stacko, it was hell lots of fun playing with them; Aaron,Jenny,Wilson,Sergeant. I actually put aside my prejudiced p.o.v against Sergeant while playing. And I he even did as what I said which resulted to him toppling over the stack and lose the round lol :D. I'm still on all smiles typing this post while recalling the scenes haha. Only if everyday could be this fun haha.

Sloth

2010-07-18T15:15:00.003+08:00

Yesterday and today's morn weather makes ppl feel like nua-ing the whole day. I shouldn't be slacking man... I've so many things not done. Don't feel like doing compro stg 2 - -. I'm lazy. Ugh. Though deadline is nxt week.

Better master CC Wushu taolus fast, I want to get promoted and learn 棍术! Must practice more on NPWushu's jitiquan also.

Wrath

2010-07-15T22:50:00.002+08:00

I really had enough. I hate thursdays. As if having sergeant tagging along EVERYDAY isn't bad enough? I even got into the same Idea Jumpstart class as him. Tolerating his retarded actions and words. Adding on to that, I have to endure his coughing of which half of the time, his saliva would fly about and land on me. EVERYFUCKINGDAY!. What kind of person coughs for 7days a week 28~30days a month 365days A YEAR! (I know I'm fucking bad to insult him behind his back, I'VE REACHED A POINT WHERE I DON'T FUCKING GIVE A DAMN.)I've tried accepting him for who he is, but now, not anymore. He has crossed that ohsolenient boundary that I set for people. No one but him in this 5 years of my life has made me feel like giving him a punch in the face. Seriously.

On every thursday, after IJ, there'll be SnW. A netball noob like me always make mistake. I know you are good at playing netball. You bring the team to victory most of the time. But you'll get so pissed and show the team some attitude when we make mistakes. You've called us stupid, slow and stuffs. We didn't get pissed over it. So what if we lost? As long as we tried, theres no need for your attitude.

Last but not least, Wushu. Sorry for behaving like a woman having her menstruation today. I wasn't in the mood to do anything. I apologize once again.

Sunday.

2010-07-11T16:28:00.004+08:00

Finally One Piece's new episode is up today. There's no FullMetalAlchemist BrotherHood to look forward tomorrow since it has already ended. Well... It's been long since I last played a match of dota. Since school started?

Fierce, they started picking a team of AOE-ers. Initially, both side were fighting fiercely. But my team won later in the game. :D We somehow had good teamwork to pwn them. The enermy were friends adding to the fact that they were picking AOE heroes, it appeared to be daunting, but there was no room for discouragement, just focus on farming and teamwork to get them off. :D. Right the weather is still freaking hot, I shall not do my homework,but I shall go play basketball or ya more tui. :)

Improve

2010-07-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

I need to improve on my acad area n wushu.

Action speaks louder than words

2010-07-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

I rather do, than talk. 'nuff said.

Tuesday

2010-07-06T22:37:00.003+08:00

Can't think of any title of this blogpost. Well...today was over in a blink of an eye. Tired...Was energetic after school, but the free period from 3-6.30 made me so frigging tired. Did nothing but stare at my comp...open firefox...type in www.facebook.com. Nothing's new. Close the browser. stare at the screen. and the cycle repeats again. I was actually afraid that my stretching will deprove drastically as I over-stretched the previous week. I couldn't even do a kick that was just 90% from the ground. My calf muscles were just so tight idk why. But I managed to recover in time. I seriously hope that my CC wushu coach won't bring another wrong size wushu pants, if not I would've to delay going to sino on sat by another week again. My stench could kill you. *Raise my armpit* "Now, SMELL IT and FAINT!". I really shall go and bath now, long day ahead tomorrow. I will surely fall asleep during ELTECH or ENGMEC.